Personal Rant

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Personal Rant

​If you have been following along with the many transitions I have been going though (as seen throughout the rest of the site and other blog The Journey) then you will know that I have uprooted from a normal brick and mortar home to a home on wheels.  I've decided to go full-time and live in an RV.  

It has always been my intention to be able to use my writings and workshops to reach people in personal ways- more than just writing educational, non-fiction books.  While I love writing books, when it comes to non-fiction, I find that it makes a bigger impact when you can have interactive learning.  And of course, you know my heart is teaching the teenagers.  I wanted to do the full-time RV lifestyle so I could travel from city to city to reach teens and parents in their hometowns all while getting to see this beautiful country we live in. (Yes, I will still continue to write fiction as well... how can I not? Lol) 
Sounds like a win-win, right? Spend a few days a week writing full time and then the other four, teaching workshops or seminars.  I think it is perfect! 

Anyway...  I did it.  I downsized, bought an RV and am now- for the moment- in beautiful South Carolina.  Here lies the rub...
It comes at great expense to be able to do this lifestyle and I knew that I was going to have to work for a while until I got on my feet with the books, workshops and mini workshops.  However, I find myself falling into the same patterns that I thought I rescued myself from when I was living in St. Louis.

I am working. All. The. Time.    The money seems to be so tight and I have to watch every penny and also take on extra hours just to make ends meet.  I am so worried that I am going to be caught in the same trap that I just left.

I am surrounded by all this beauty and I have no time to get out and see it!  I'm sure that there are teenagers in the area, but I just can't find the time to get to them!  And my work?  Well, it keeps getting pushed back further and further as I continue to work my "day job"... which does not make me happy!

I have so many new tweaks I want to put in place for the Total Truth Workshop to make it even better than it was before, but I can't find the time!  

The vicious cycle has followed me to South Carolina!!  That wasn't supposed to happen!

So... here's what I need you to do!  (lol)  Tell all your friends to buy my books and visit this and my other websites and book me for speaking engagements so that I can break free of working and get out on the road like I'm supposed to!  See?  Problem solved.  Thanks for your cooperation.

If only it were that easy!  Thanks for letting me vent.  It is a real fear, but now that I am away from my family and friends and am completely alone with no distractions other than work, I really have no excuses not to find a few more hours a week to work on stuff.  

Huh...  Now I have a setting.  See how much you have helped?  Thanks!  I'll try not to let it go so long between blog posting.  I know how you hate that.  By the way, thank you for all of your emails of concern.  I really am on the right path to hopefully get to do what I want.  I just have to learn patience.  God's favorite lesson for me... I'm a stubborn one.

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