Day Eight!

Today was bring donuts to work day!!   And while my co-workers might have thought it was a conspiracy against their waistlines, they found it in their heart to partake of the sweet deep fried icing covered deliciousness!!   

My experiment of kindness has back-fired more than I ever expected.   Now when I do something for someone, (perhaps the exact same thing I would have done a month ago) it is now looked upon as something to check off my list.  I'm "only" doing it because of the Kindness Challenge.  I can't tell you how much this irks me.  I'm beginning that this kindness challenge was indeed a bad idea.  It is not bringing me the happiness or communion that I was so hoping for.  It has had quite the opposite effect.  I feel more alone as people think that I am "fake" all of a sudden and then the being "better than every one else" still stings a bit too.  It's only day eight.  Things may turn around, you never know.  But in the meantime... I'll keep on loving others- the way I always do- plus a little extra so I can continually strive to be a better person.  That's all I can do.  Everyone else has to take care of themselves... No one is making you eat the donuts I bring...

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